Beauty in the present.

I wish I was as skinny as I was when I thought I was fat.

But really though...

I've been feeling really nostalgic lately. I've been going through some old pictures, and I've discovered something. I was a pretty girl! Back then, I didn't recognize it. I took myself so much for granted and worried about things that I really shouldn't have. I was awesome just the way I was! It got me thinking though. I realized I missed my old self. Why? Is that weird? I think it is because the past few years I have been on a quest to beautify myself and in doing so I have worn myself out and forgotten what makes me so awesome. Which is ironic because I am also chubbier than I ever have been, haha!

Anyways, so I have some beef with the health industry. Or rather the industry that is capitalizing on women's vulnerabilities to the way our society thinks they should look. Seriously, think about all of the products, services, and businesses who are totally capitalizing on it. Every new diet pill that comes out promising to drop the pounds, the millions of diet books, expensive gym memberships, weightloss camps and tv shows, boob jobs, tattooed makeup, spas, (people might gripe about me saying this..) but people like Dr Oz who is always coming out with one more amazing superfood you need to go get, and even some of the more expensive "organic" food you need to buy. 

You need to be thin, no you need curves, but you look better with rock hard abs, and you need huge boobs, but get rid of your butt, no wait it's too flat, your calves look funny and so does your nose, you have too much hair, and you can't show your gray hair, get rid of your stretch marks. Eat eggs, no don't eat eggs. Don't drink milk, wait just drink goat milk or coconut milk. Wheat makes you bloated, and eat low fat foods but you still need good fats. Ok seriously, why does it have to be soooo complicated?!?! No wonder we keep losing and gaining the same 20-30 lbs!!

We have become obsessed. Too many beautiful women a falling prey to conflicting advertising, believing that beauty is just one weightloss pill away. Too many beautiful women are hurting inside because of these high expectations. I have fallen prey to it too. We need to stop. I think we are stressing ourselves out way too much over something that is really actually pretty simple. 

Be active, do things that make you feel good. Have fun and eat your veggies and eat your cake too. More importantly, love who you are right now. Don't take yourself for granted.

 

and just as a side note, I do not mean to condemn any woman who has done any of the above things and you don't need to feel bad about it. If any of those things makes you happy, then do them and who cares what I or anyone else thinks! :)